they are some of my favorite all time. check out this list of really good ones:
1. Blame it on Fidel (my favorite movie)
2. Moliere
3. Seraphine
4. My Night at Maud's
5. The Diving Bell and The Butterfly
6. Who Are You, Polly Maggoo?
7. Persepolis
8. Coco Before Chanel
9. La Vie En Rose
10. Heartbreaker
11. I Do: How to Get Married and Stay Single
12. The Science of Sleep
13. Paris, Je T'aime
Monday, April 23, 2012
Dear Sally,
I've been watching a lot of Felicity lately and just wish I had a cassette tape that I could talk to. I'd love to receive letters/tapes back from Sally giving me concise, didactic advice as to what I should do in my confusing life situation.
I'm having extreme inner turmoil about what I should do with my life. I hate not knowing. School was so good for me, with deadlines and goals. I feel really sad that this is how life is...endless monetary monotony. I don't feel motivated to do anything lately. I want to quit art and feel like I am a life failure. I still want to create. I love creating, but I can't help thinking that I wasted a lot of time and money on an art degree (shhhhh don't tell my brother-in-law I said that). When Felicity changed her major from Pre-med to Art I was just screaming at the screen, "DON'T DO IT!!! GET A MEDICINE DEGREE!! SUCH A BAD BAD DECISION! YOu ARE GONNA REGRET IT!!"
Lately, every day, I wish I had studied something else. I wish I had chosen a career. I am 30 years old working at an after-school program at the YMCA. The kids who live in the ghetto and have dead-beat parents ask me why I as a 30-year old work for minimum wage. How can I tell them that education is important? Their parents probably make a lot more money than me and never went to school. I have my masters and it hasn't done me any good. I feel embarrassed to say that I have a masters degree and now work at the job I had when I was a sophomore in highschool. I wish I had a career. But really I don't want a career at all and that's the problem. I've never wanted one. I never imagined having to have one. Unfortunately I can't go on much longer without one. Bills pile up, my dreams are not getting fulfilled (although I'm having trouble knowing what I really want from life anymore) and I am struggling by on a measly hourly wage. It's really no way to live (that's what I'm calling this).
So I feel like I have some decisions to make and here are things I consider in this process:
1. What do I really want from my life? Besides having a family, what are some goals and desires I have? Some friends were talking about a bucket list and I realized I don't have one and have never thought of making one. I wrote down two things I want to do: 1-learn another language, 2-Live abroad for a while.
2. I'm so confused about what I should do in the next year. I have a semi-job-offer to be a program coordinator at the Danish residency, where I was in 2010. They would want me to work in January or February for a year...maybe more. I feel like I really want to do that. My parents are so supportive. It would be the best job for me, if I really wanted to continue down this career path, but do I want to do that? I just don't know. Every day I wish I was close to my nieces and nephews. I want kids in my life and those are the closest I come to my own. But I also know I have to live my own life and not just hang around my siblings and their families.
3. When I think of my own life this is what I envision: I want to live a life full of recycling, home-made soap, bees, gardening, bicycling and sewing. I want a small house, made from a shipping container, with a lot of land with a garden and fruit trees. I want to freeze and can fresh food all summer. I want to make salves and soaps. I want to have fresh eggs from chickens. Where are all the guys that want these things too? I'm really sick of clean-cut cut-outs.
4. If I'm not going to pursue art any longer, what career will I choose? I just got another job as a seamstress. I really like to sew. How do I make a living at this though? I'm also making another wedding dress this year, a really simple one for a friend.
So Sally, I'm just too confused because I have too many options. I cut this short because my heart and head hurt as I try to figure things out. Please let me know what you think. Talk back soon.
I'm having extreme inner turmoil about what I should do with my life. I hate not knowing. School was so good for me, with deadlines and goals. I feel really sad that this is how life is...endless monetary monotony. I don't feel motivated to do anything lately. I want to quit art and feel like I am a life failure. I still want to create. I love creating, but I can't help thinking that I wasted a lot of time and money on an art degree (shhhhh don't tell my brother-in-law I said that). When Felicity changed her major from Pre-med to Art I was just screaming at the screen, "DON'T DO IT!!! GET A MEDICINE DEGREE!! SUCH A BAD BAD DECISION! YOu ARE GONNA REGRET IT!!"
Lately, every day, I wish I had studied something else. I wish I had chosen a career. I am 30 years old working at an after-school program at the YMCA. The kids who live in the ghetto and have dead-beat parents ask me why I as a 30-year old work for minimum wage. How can I tell them that education is important? Their parents probably make a lot more money than me and never went to school. I have my masters and it hasn't done me any good. I feel embarrassed to say that I have a masters degree and now work at the job I had when I was a sophomore in highschool. I wish I had a career. But really I don't want a career at all and that's the problem. I've never wanted one. I never imagined having to have one. Unfortunately I can't go on much longer without one. Bills pile up, my dreams are not getting fulfilled (although I'm having trouble knowing what I really want from life anymore) and I am struggling by on a measly hourly wage. It's really no way to live (that's what I'm calling this).
So I feel like I have some decisions to make and here are things I consider in this process:
1. What do I really want from my life? Besides having a family, what are some goals and desires I have? Some friends were talking about a bucket list and I realized I don't have one and have never thought of making one. I wrote down two things I want to do: 1-learn another language, 2-Live abroad for a while.
2. I'm so confused about what I should do in the next year. I have a semi-job-offer to be a program coordinator at the Danish residency, where I was in 2010. They would want me to work in January or February for a year...maybe more. I feel like I really want to do that. My parents are so supportive. It would be the best job for me, if I really wanted to continue down this career path, but do I want to do that? I just don't know. Every day I wish I was close to my nieces and nephews. I want kids in my life and those are the closest I come to my own. But I also know I have to live my own life and not just hang around my siblings and their families.
3. When I think of my own life this is what I envision: I want to live a life full of recycling, home-made soap, bees, gardening, bicycling and sewing. I want a small house, made from a shipping container, with a lot of land with a garden and fruit trees. I want to freeze and can fresh food all summer. I want to make salves and soaps. I want to have fresh eggs from chickens. Where are all the guys that want these things too? I'm really sick of clean-cut cut-outs.
4. If I'm not going to pursue art any longer, what career will I choose? I just got another job as a seamstress. I really like to sew. How do I make a living at this though? I'm also making another wedding dress this year, a really simple one for a friend.
So Sally, I'm just too confused because I have too many options. I cut this short because my heart and head hurt as I try to figure things out. Please let me know what you think. Talk back soon.
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