these days

I have been wanting to sing a song at some open mic night and my friend Christina has this friend Iben who works at this little Cafe/Bar in Copenhagen. Back in March, Iben said I should come and sing, but it took until September for me to actually make it! I wasn't sure how it would be, because it was a jazz club, but Iben told me that singer/songwriter stuff would be ok.
So we showed up around 9pm a couple of weeks ago. I thought we would just go and check it out, before I walked up with my guitar. All the singers were very show-tunes-cabaretesque! I felt really out of place. I had prepare These Days by Nico and felt like there was no way I could sing it. I would have been boo-ed off the stage (even though there was no stage and everyone who came in the door kind of ran into the singer standing by the piano). There was no mic for my guitar and no mic stand, so I couldn't even go hands free! Needless to say, I wasn't brave enough to perform that night and now I am on the look out again for a place to sing some songs.
I don't know this part of me that wants to put on a show. I think deep down I always wanted to be a musician, but realized in my mid-twenties I wasn't poetic enough to write the songs I wanted to be singing. So I keep playing other peoples' songs and enjoy doing that, even if it is just for me. But lately, since Amanda is back sharing my apartment with me, I have been singing her to sleep with some melodies and it has been wonderful to play and sing every day for an appreciative audience. 
Maybe I will start and internet open mic, where I just post videos of me playing and you drink tea at home while you listen. Enjoy this one!